Learn to… be what you are, and learn to resign with a good grace all that you are not.
~Henri Frederic Amiel
I know, it has been quite a while since I wrote on my blog. I can’t even say I have a great excuse, just a bunch of excuses, which are really that…excuses. Since I last updated, I completed my Master’s in Reading Education and moved from Western NC back to Eastern NC around mid July while I applied all up and down the East coast for a job. I was offered a job in Florida at the beginning of August, and moved here within 3 days. I started teaching 1st grade, and was switched to Kindergarten after a month and had to essentially start all over. (Not every teacher gets a re due of their first year lol). I feel as if I am finally at the point where I am almost settled into my new life, although that is as always a work in progress.
I have at many times come up with a good blog topic, but always failed to follow through. Sometimes it was because I was just so exhausted or busy, other times I became sidetracked by something else I wanted to do. But I feel that if you really want to do something, you will make it happen. So here I am!
I have to give full credit to this blog update to Christina Taylor, who is far better then me at updating her blog. She posted a similar post, and I started commenting on her blog, and decided “Hey! Why don’t you just write your own blog post.” So Christina…this post is dedicated to you!
Check out her post here! http://brokenmusings.wordpress.com/2012/10/28/things-i-suck-at/
If anyone is familiar with Jenna Marbles (a youtube personality…she is quite hilarious) she created a video highlighting things she sucks at. This made Christina sit down and think of somethings she sucks at, and in turn made me think of things I suck at. So here is my list of (some) of the things I suck at.
This could be an ongoing list…but off the top of my head:
1) I suck at singing.
I am AWESOME in the shower and in my car. But no, I prefer singing SOLO. So Low no one should ever have to hear me. I like to teach my Kindergarteners songs as they learn and always dread when I have to actually sing. I am not the worst singer ever…but I am definitely not good lol
2) NOT procrastinating…
I have at least 3 different things I should be doing, and yet here I am. I always wait until the last possible moment to do anything, even though every time I do I always get mad at myself. I will find anything to do so I can put of doing something. My house was always at its cleanest when I had a paper due. I will go through and alphabetize my book/dvd etc collection to avoid doing something that in reality probably wouldn’t have taken me that long to begin with. I will spend hours on pinterest pinning ideas for my classroom, instead of actually doing something like lesson planning.
3) This is a bit embarrassing…Telling the difference between effect and affect and then and than.
I am a certified teacher with a Masters! Why can’t I figure this out! Good thing I am currently teaching Kinders hehe. Maybe once I get to the intermediate grades I will have the instruction to teach the kids and finally be able to figure this out. I like to think I get it right 50% of the time…also, please don’t try to explain it to me lol Good news…I understand your and you’re and their, there, they’re, even if sometimes I am typing fast and make a mistake haha
4) Finishing/ following through on stuff. I have a LOT of interests and hobbies and have the tendency of starting things, but rarely do I finish them.
~I have countless art and crafts projects that I will work on nonstop, until I stop. (have incomplete needle point projects, scarves, scrap booking..the list is endless)
~I start video games, will play for hours and hours, then (then/than I am so confused!!) I am done. I love playing the games, I am so excited to purchase the game and begin playing, but I get to the point where I get sidetracked and never complete the game.
~Started a blog,(well I started 2) was really into it, then stopped updating.
~If I don’t finish a book in one shot, or at least in a week I rarely complete it.
~Have started many creative writing stories, always complete the beginning, have a decent outline for the plot, never finish it.
The list could go on. I will often pick up some of these again, but I rarely complete anything.
5) Saving my money. I don’t even understand why I bother with a Savings account sometimes.
6) Being tall…and by this I mean I am short.
I am 5’1 (and a half!). I have to climb on things most of the time to reach, I have been told to stand up more then once (I was already standing), even step ladders are sometimes not enough for me to reach things, most pants are too long, people often feel as if they have to squat to be in pictures with me, the last set of pictures I was in, my head was on the same level as my friends boobs…
7) Making my bed.
I HATE making my bed. Maybe because my logic is I am just going to mess it up again later. I like the way a nicely made bed looks, but my bed is only made up like this when I am on a cleaning mission. I admittedly sleep on top of my covers using a blanket most of the time so my bed stays made up.
8) Folding my clothes.
I blame working too many years at Old Navy, but I despise folding my clothes. I hang just about everything possible, and that is only if the clothes make it out of my dryer, which I often just keep restarting to dewrinkle everything.
9) Giving up control.
This covers many areas of my life. I often feel better ‘doing things myself’. Not that I don’t think others can do just a good of a job, I still would rather do it myself if possible. I have an idea of how something should be, and want it done that way. I also dislike giving up control of myself and my surroundings. If I drink (which isn’t often), it is only enough where I am still completely aware of everything around me and I still feel in complete control.
10) Making and keeping scheduled appointments.
For some reason these make me feel trapped in a way. If I HAVE to be somewhere at a certain time, it bugs the heck out of me! Especially if it is something weeks away for like a haircut or something. I don’t know what I have going on tomorrow, let alone in 6 weeks! Stop pressuring me! I am much happier being that person who walks in.
11) Staying focused…
Sometimes I get so focused everything else fades into the background. I can read a book for 8 hours straight for instance, barely remembering to eat and drink. But most of the time, I multitask like crazy. If I am watching something on TV, I more than likely have my computer out and am either playing around or attempting to do something productive, probably both. Since starting this post, I have checked FB a few times, texted some people, started looking at quotes to add…When I am cleaning, I am really bad at finishing one room at a time. I will start cleaning my room, find something that belongs in the bathroom, go to put it away, and start cleaning something in there, where I decide I am thirsty, go get a drink of water, start cleaning something in there…It is ridiculous.
12) Self restraint on hobbies and interests…this is a big problem for me. When I get into something, I get really into it! It should also be said that when I want something, or want to do something, I want it right at that moment.
~If I am starting a new TV series that is already out, I will watch every episode back to back until I am done or caught up.
~If it is a book series, I will buy the entire series and read straight through (I read Harry Potter books 2, 3, and 4 on a Friday, Saturday, and Sunday when I finally got into the series, even called out of work sick and for the following books, I was at the midnight releases).
~If it is something I am into, I have to have it immediately. If the newest book in my series comes out at midnight, I have to have it at midnight! I will visit stores, ebay etc to acquire whatever it is I want as quickly as I can.
~A new art and craft project, I buy everything I need for it.
~I like to have completed sets of things, like every book in a series or every season of a favorite tv show. If a movie is a trilogy or a set, I want them all.
~I have been struggling with the desire for a new phone. If I wait a month I can get the one I really want. Or I can get one right now, it just isn’t as good, but at least I will have my new phone ( I have decided to wait, but man has it been back and forth).
If you have made it to the end of this post congratulations. You did better than I would have! If it was me, I would have become sidetracked around example 8, started surfing the web, started a new hobby, cleaned half my house, and took a nap on top of my covers.
This is by no means a list of things I am planning to change about my self. I am 28, these things I suck at are here to stay! I am curious, what do you guys suck at?